shucks. its those points of time again..
1) am i gullible?
sometimes when truth are shockingly true, it seems so unbelievable and it seems that only the stupid ones will believe it.
SHIT. i'm still caught in the middle.
i am gg to believe it.
but if it turns out otherwise, i swear i will nv believe anything again.
LOL.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
decided.
haha. alright. i blinked my eyes once. OMG. CT IS HERE AGAIN. wth. and i've realise what i've learn so far. it seems that nothing much is done. =.=
yea. waiting for OIAP interview now. my interviewers are my year 1 & 2 advisors. LOL. something tells me passing the interview is smooth. however, i shant be too complacent.
“我最喜欢的颜色是黑与白。但是，黑与白之间都带有灰色地带。只有在钢琴上的黑键与白键之间会带出彩虹。”heard this randomly. 100% agreed.
yea. waiting for OIAP interview now. my interviewers are my year 1 & 2 advisors. LOL. something tells me passing the interview is smooth. however, i shant be too complacent.
“我最喜欢的颜色是黑与白。但是，黑与白之间都带有灰色地带。只有在钢琴上的黑键与白键之间会带出彩虹。”heard this randomly. 100% agreed.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
a penny for ur thoughts, a pound for mine.
contemplating:
about the changes,
about how much we've grown,
about what am i going towards
about what i am now.
looking ahead:
nothing much,
just like what others have become.
everyone heading towards the same direction,
how tiring it is.
i wanna ask, like a kid putting up her hand in a kindergarten class:
why are some things deemed as important to people,
and why are others not as important?
why do some put merits before other things and some put others before self?
are our future all about what we have to achieve or does it depends on what we can achieve?
i realise, as i grew older, i get more timid.
people no longer seem like what they seem to be.
one can never understand the thoughts of another anymore.
scary, indeed.
tired of guessing.
tired of being in the game.
in other words, i was in the game even before i realised i was.
how scary.
about the changes,
about how much we've grown,
about what am i going towards
about what i am now.
looking ahead:
nothing much,
just like what others have become.
everyone heading towards the same direction,
how tiring it is.
i wanna ask, like a kid putting up her hand in a kindergarten class:
why are some things deemed as important to people,
and why are others not as important?
why do some put merits before other things and some put others before self?
are our future all about what we have to achieve or does it depends on what we can achieve?
i realise, as i grew older, i get more timid.
people no longer seem like what they seem to be.
one can never understand the thoughts of another anymore.
scary, indeed.
tired of guessing.
tired of being in the game.
in other words, i was in the game even before i realised i was.
how scary.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
distanced.
was feeling so bad that i skipped school. haha. not rly skipping. just skipped 2 lectures & dipplus today. cabbed home coz it rly feels sucky. pop pills & sleep.
yea. its going to be wkn again! i wonder how it's gonna be :D tml short sch day. but i guess will wait in sch for dawnie.
and wl's msn is acting weird! evidence next post.
yea. its going to be wkn again! i wonder how it's gonna be :D tml short sch day. but i guess will wait in sch for dawnie.
and wl's msn is acting weird! evidence next post.
Monday, May 11, 2009
johnson's fav character - Shakespeare
A man and his wife recently stroke lottery and got rich instantaneously recently. real rich, i mean. and so, they very much wanted to mix into the upper social circle.
One day, they went to a ball and wanted to mix into a grp of richies talking about shakespeare.
And so, the wife butted in: OH YEA! I JUST SAW SHAKESPEARE TAKING BUS 157 TO ORCHARD THAT DAY!
The man, being embarassed of his wife, hurried excused themselves from the conversation and pull his wife out of the ballroom. He then scolded his wife harshly: WHY ARE YOU SO IGNORANT?!...
didnt you noe bus 157 didnt even go to orchard?!
=.=
tt's how ignorant people can be at times.
and yes. im starting to hate the little things at home now.
One day, they went to a ball and wanted to mix into a grp of richies talking about shakespeare.
And so, the wife butted in: OH YEA! I JUST SAW SHAKESPEARE TAKING BUS 157 TO ORCHARD THAT DAY!
The man, being embarassed of his wife, hurried excused themselves from the conversation and pull his wife out of the ballroom. He then scolded his wife harshly: WHY ARE YOU SO IGNORANT?!...
didnt you noe bus 157 didnt even go to orchard?!
=.=
tt's how ignorant people can be at times.
and yes. im starting to hate the little things at home now.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
the reason.
quoting myself: "I realised. As i move closer to my aspirations, I'm actually moving further away from my ambition.
if you guys knew what my ambition & aspirations were, u'd agree with me. lol.
ambition: air stewardess :D
aspiration: get into uni.
SO YEA. what for i go uni and get a irrelevant degree to what i wanna work rite. and since im gg to get tt degree, what for work an irrelevant job rite.
so yea. dilemmas. nth to do with gpa, quan. haha.
dawn, maybe you're right. but facing reality, i cant have the best of both worlds. still, a decision must be made ultimately rite :( haha.
johnson: yea. but shakespeare's way dead.
alan: ambition, answered. lol. HMMM. but, they will still 'unwillingly' be an accountant ultimately rite? somehow i dun really want to do a/cg for life i guess. doing for schwork, the simplified modal, its alrite. aah. but too tedious to do real stuffs. but well, maybe my impression will change after internship! haha. and how did u get here?! haha.
if you guys knew what my ambition & aspirations were, u'd agree with me. lol.
ambition: air stewardess :D
aspiration: get into uni.
SO YEA. what for i go uni and get a irrelevant degree to what i wanna work rite. and since im gg to get tt degree, what for work an irrelevant job rite.
so yea. dilemmas. nth to do with gpa, quan. haha.
dawn, maybe you're right. but facing reality, i cant have the best of both worlds. still, a decision must be made ultimately rite :( haha.
johnson: yea. but shakespeare's way dead.
alan: ambition, answered. lol. HMMM. but, they will still 'unwillingly' be an accountant ultimately rite? somehow i dun really want to do a/cg for life i guess. doing for schwork, the simplified modal, its alrite. aah. but too tedious to do real stuffs. but well, maybe my impression will change after internship! haha. and how did u get here?! haha.
Monday, May 4, 2009
ambitions vs aspirations
ah! life has been hectic recently. so much that i dun even have time to spare for my hk dramas in pps :(
a final year student. time to think about where i should go after i leave this place of 3 years. yes, i know i wanted to get into uni if i could. of coz, NTU would be ideal. but, what about the ambition that i've always talked abt?
i would say, my asipirations & ambitions are different. all the while, i've thought that my plans were good, and i'd be able to realise both of them. now, i'd say it may not be that true after all.
what one person told me was right. why bother to study sth i wouldnt apply in future? i replied, so that when i got grounded, i can put what i learn into good use and wouldnt go jobless. and the person told me, by then, there would be fresh grads and why would employers prefer me?
so it get me thinking a little. moreover, i would lose touch to accounting after that many years later.
ambition or aspirations?
I realised. As i move closer to my aspirations, I'm actually moving further away from my ambition.
a final year student. time to think about where i should go after i leave this place of 3 years. yes, i know i wanted to get into uni if i could. of coz, NTU would be ideal. but, what about the ambition that i've always talked abt?
i would say, my asipirations & ambitions are different. all the while, i've thought that my plans were good, and i'd be able to realise both of them. now, i'd say it may not be that true after all.
what one person told me was right. why bother to study sth i wouldnt apply in future? i replied, so that when i got grounded, i can put what i learn into good use and wouldnt go jobless. and the person told me, by then, there would be fresh grads and why would employers prefer me?
so it get me thinking a little. moreover, i would lose touch to accounting after that many years later.
ambition or aspirations?
I realised. As i move closer to my aspirations, I'm actually moving further away from my ambition.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
square 1
oh my. back to a routine life. i wanna break the cycle.
and im hating to write. lol.
eh? last semester studying! whee. 4 more months to go i guess.
and im getting really motivated to go OIAP again. bye singapore.
and im hating to write. lol.
eh? last semester studying! whee. 4 more months to go i guess.
and im getting really motivated to go OIAP again. bye singapore.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
time like this, shld be better spent sleeping.
i dont like tonight. coz i've a bad feeling. i feel bad. i dont feel good.
hence, i shld just go and sleep and forget about everything in this world and wake up to welcome the world tml with my arms wide open.
everything can just go and die at the moment now. i feel depress thinking abt it.
i dont like tonight. coz i've a bad feeling. i feel bad. i dont feel good.
hence, i shld just go and sleep and forget about everything in this world and wake up to welcome the world tml with my arms wide open.
everything can just go and die at the moment now. i feel depress thinking abt it.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
this day.
and so, my sister was finally admitted into the hospital.
she hasnt been feeling well for the past 2 weeks, being tortured by fever & pain at nights for almost everyday. well, she stays in hostel so i dun really get to see her. but weekends, when i see her, i felt her pain too. it's the first time that i've seen her cry from the pain that she is suffering. i wanted to cry with her too.
i've always tot that... me and my sister dont really get along well with all our quarrels & fights. but this incident has made me realised how i love & care for her and that i really want her to be well. it somehow reminded me of the pain i felt when i saw my granny suffering the other time. its been 4 years since i felt so. the heartpain and the worry-ness i dare not show to others.
silently, i cried and pray that she would be fine.
she hasnt been feeling well for the past 2 weeks, being tortured by fever & pain at nights for almost everyday. well, she stays in hostel so i dun really get to see her. but weekends, when i see her, i felt her pain too. it's the first time that i've seen her cry from the pain that she is suffering. i wanted to cry with her too.
i've always tot that... me and my sister dont really get along well with all our quarrels & fights. but this incident has made me realised how i love & care for her and that i really want her to be well. it somehow reminded me of the pain i felt when i saw my granny suffering the other time. its been 4 years since i felt so. the heartpain and the worry-ness i dare not show to others.
silently, i cried and pray that she would be fine.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
NDP 2009!
HEYLO!
ndp is here once again. how time flies. haha. it just seemed like lastyear one's barely ended! anyone interested to join being NDP ambassador?! :D
it's quite fun, get to watch NDP foc (no need queue for tickets, can get tickets too), eat KFC, pizzahut for meals, get many goodiebags, free uniform & lots of friends.. & many cca points too. ahaha.
here's a poster of it & my grp photo in the poster! haha. okay. sylvester said it doesnt look like me. but well. yea. join NDP. CCApoints_CCApoints.
ohyea. today last day of work with becks @ Maybank. so-so. okays. and when im home, for once, i got into the same lift as my airsteward-neighbour. SO COOL LAR. he's SIA AIR STEWARD LAEEE. and his uniform is so damm smart & cool & awesome. perhaps when i go for interview i shall ask him for tips. but. aiya. i barely know him. BUT.!! a guy being an airsteward. so COOOL. and he really look GREAT in the uniform! SIA :D
Sunday, April 12, 2009
inspired?
http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/popup-frame.html
go watch the vid there!
no, im not promoting christianity nor am i into christianity.
go watch the vid there!
no, im not promoting christianity nor am i into christianity.
just felt that things brought up are quite inspiring (quoting from lopez). haha. how true & how ironic mankind is. yet myself, belongs to that category too.
often i've pondered. what am i soughting after all this while and how am i making the best out of it? well, guess i will only have the answer when i am really doing it right (:
finally gotten a new mp3 (: touch, touched, TOUCHHH. ahha. okay lar. as i told lele, somehow.. i still miss my creative zen. ipod may be like much better than creative, but a noob like me prefers a more user-friendly creative zen. but of coz, im nt gg to regret. haha.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Love to be loved by you.
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I’m blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved by you
-Marc Terenzi
life's been normal recently. & i just realised i've been to school for at least a day every week ever since sch hols. somehow i wished im back to my year1 lives, been free from sch during holidays.
wanted to work. but to no avail.
lost my mp3. kinda sad. bought it w my 1st pay :( sigh. going to buy ipod touch. before sch reopens.
very tired recently. probably nth to motivates me on. i need sth, some motivation. or i will get even more tired. some what's my holidays about now? drama & more drama? im getting dramatic. haha.
many wants, many unfulfilled, much unsatisfaction.
to try, to fulfil, to continue to satisfy
but only to realise
it's not up to me to realise the dreams.
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you
Yes I love to be loved by you
Saturday, March 28, 2009
1st anniversary!!!!!!!! :D
whee!
i know nobody celebrates this.
but let me be special :D
it's my 1st anniversary with my braces! HAPPY BRACES DAY JACQUELINE!
how time flies. doctor koh says 1/2 more year to go. 1/2 more year, im going to say byebye to braces and take them off. HAHAHAHA.
no time to do a collage. when im free, i shall do the development of my braces days :D
buaiz. tired.
happy enlisting, alfone.
happy belated birthday alvinchew & elvinaTAY!
happy braces day, jacqueline! :D
i know nobody celebrates this.
but let me be special :D
it's my 1st anniversary with my braces! HAPPY BRACES DAY JACQUELINE!
how time flies. doctor koh says 1/2 more year to go. 1/2 more year, im going to say byebye to braces and take them off. HAHAHAHA.
no time to do a collage. when im free, i shall do the development of my braces days :D
buaiz. tired.
happy enlisting, alfone.
happy belated birthday alvinchew & elvinaTAY!
happy braces day, jacqueline! :D
Friday, March 20, 2009
Serve Batam'09
Finally back! had a great rest. hoped everyone got a great rest too!
It's really a great experience and somehow, i want to go on a serve trip again! not just 4 days. 2 weeks! i want a longer one.
The kids are really cute and... it made me learn to cherish the things i own more. they, who lived in slums could lead such a happy life. yet us, who has the luxury of all that we want (much more than what we need) are still complaining so much! i envy their simple life, their innocent smiles and their easy-attained happiness. never had i known happiness can come from such simple smiles.
they may be poor, but they definitely had the best childhood. definitely better than us. so let's learn to cherish all that we have. stop complaining, stop harping on little things, move forward with a smile and welcome the future with our arms wide open (:
it may seem that we are going there to help them, but i would say that i gained alot in return. not just cca points, but valuable experiences, sense of satisfaction, happiness, 4 days totally FREE from worries, and.. i learnt from them. to give and take, to not take everything to heart seriously, to be generous, to be... simple.
thank you kids! (:
and thank ou B-team! i want to go serve trip with u guys again (:
PS, there's chickens in kampung. ZZZZZZZ> thanks to dennis, jy, bel for being my sandwich bread and... "escorting" me up & down the hill. lol. i wouldnt noe what to do w/o u guys. i will faint on the spot. haha.
lots of pixes! (: more on fb!
It's really a great experience and somehow, i want to go on a serve trip again! not just 4 days. 2 weeks! i want a longer one.
The kids are really cute and... it made me learn to cherish the things i own more. they, who lived in slums could lead such a happy life. yet us, who has the luxury of all that we want (much more than what we need) are still complaining so much! i envy their simple life, their innocent smiles and their easy-attained happiness. never had i known happiness can come from such simple smiles.
they may be poor, but they definitely had the best childhood. definitely better than us. so let's learn to cherish all that we have. stop complaining, stop harping on little things, move forward with a smile and welcome the future with our arms wide open (:
it may seem that we are going there to help them, but i would say that i gained alot in return. not just cca points, but valuable experiences, sense of satisfaction, happiness, 4 days totally FREE from worries, and.. i learnt from them. to give and take, to not take everything to heart seriously, to be generous, to be... simple.
thank you kids! (:
and thank ou B-team! i want to go serve trip with u guys again (:
PS, there's chickens in kampung. ZZZZZZZ> thanks to dennis, jy, bel for being my sandwich bread and... "escorting" me up & down the hill. lol. i wouldnt noe what to do w/o u guys. i will faint on the spot. haha.
lots of pixes! (: more on fb!
eh! lele this is for you. got LELE goreng lae. cost about 4 SGD only. haha. is it ostrich goreng or chicken goreng? ahha.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
CAMP IS OVER! :D
ohmy. it's definitley tiring to run a camp :( many hiccups. but its better than expectations! i want to thank my committee for the support as well as Ms Cindy Choong, Mrs Linda Seah and Mrs Anna Yap. alsoooo... ALL THE CAMPERSSSSSSSSSS :D
yea. i lost my voice. funny thing is... i didnt really shout =.= sigh. sucks. it really sucks esp when i was awaken by a call today and i wanna say HELLO but NTH came out and i tried alot of times and i still cant speak. then... i panicked. then i tried shouting still nth. it was a hilarious scene=.= ahah.
and yeapps. so.. after so much planning and worrying, its finally over! *relieved*
so i finally went to the doctor. my mum has been pestering me to visit the doctor since last december. my friends would noe why. HAHA. i have been coughing like mad from ending of november is about... CNY? and even after that. and just when i tot im free from all germs, the stupid cough germs mutated into... sth that attacks my throat so much tt i cant speak? :( and yea. so i hope i will get well before batam.
just reach home today since saturday. great (: missed my bed so much. leaving for batam next monday. bye bed again. i hope the one-star hotel in batam is good :( coz i would not be able to sleep in peace if its.. old and.. funny.
so yea. i actually think i can book the loft and continue stay there til fri. i have been to school DAILY since last monday. and just as expected, tml, thursday, friday will be spent in school again. sad life. but good life after batam. (not really. 20 march sucks)
but well. i shall shutup and go to sleep now. have been sleeping less than my required 8 hrs per day. ARGH.
BUAIZ!
yea. i lost my voice. funny thing is... i didnt really shout =.= sigh. sucks. it really sucks esp when i was awaken by a call today and i wanna say HELLO but NTH came out and i tried alot of times and i still cant speak. then... i panicked. then i tried shouting still nth. it was a hilarious scene=.= ahah.
and yeapps. so.. after so much planning and worrying, its finally over! *relieved*
so i finally went to the doctor. my mum has been pestering me to visit the doctor since last december. my friends would noe why. HAHA. i have been coughing like mad from ending of november is about... CNY? and even after that. and just when i tot im free from all germs, the stupid cough germs mutated into... sth that attacks my throat so much tt i cant speak? :( and yea. so i hope i will get well before batam.
just reach home today since saturday. great (: missed my bed so much. leaving for batam next monday. bye bed again. i hope the one-star hotel in batam is good :( coz i would not be able to sleep in peace if its.. old and.. funny.
so yea. i actually think i can book the loft and continue stay there til fri. i have been to school DAILY since last monday. and just as expected, tml, thursday, friday will be spent in school again. sad life. but good life after batam. (not really. 20 march sucks)
but well. i shall shutup and go to sleep now. have been sleeping less than my required 8 hrs per day. ARGH.
BUAIZ!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
o v e r
whee! glad. i noe most people are over with e exams eons ago, hack care. yea. im relieved. even though i knew that i screwed up my papers.
DAM. okay. yea. rant abt papers.
ECONS - whatever. not in gpa. im glad if i can even secure a B :D that's all i ask for. thanks.
AUDIT - keeping my fingers crossed.
RFA - WTH. first qn. leases. kanna pawned. really. the lecturers have some stunts. and IM STUNNED. i swear. this is the first time in my life. I SHIVERED while attempting the first qn. and as you all noe, the start determines the rest of the qns. so yea. kinda sucky. but managed to get hold of myself from 2nd qn onwards. nt tt bad. but still feel screwed up. yes. sigh. argh.
MA1 - i think its manageable. but most ppl thinks its unexpected. so i think i screw up too as this is always the case when i think its okay, its not.
FMGT - WHAT THE HELL IS COMMERCIAL PAPER ISSUE. I'VE NEVER EVER HEARD OF IT BEFORE AND IT CAME OUT. i swear i nv even read abt it before. okay. maybe i just hack care it. but ahhahaa. it came out. and i spent 20 mins, folding my arms, staring at it, thinking abt it. 4marks =.= but of coz. complete the paper first lar. but still very stupid.
so overall. SCREWED UP. ty.
and HAHA. yes. watched slumdog millionaire today! for a moment, i tot i'm taking literature again. its so.. lit. yea. meaningful. and how the ppl struggled in slums. india~ and the young jamal is so cute. ahha. the eyes is sooooooo nice (:(:
whee~
DAM. okay. yea. rant abt papers.
ECONS - whatever. not in gpa. im glad if i can even secure a B :D that's all i ask for. thanks.
AUDIT - keeping my fingers crossed.
RFA - WTH. first qn. leases. kanna pawned. really. the lecturers have some stunts. and IM STUNNED. i swear. this is the first time in my life. I SHIVERED while attempting the first qn. and as you all noe, the start determines the rest of the qns. so yea. kinda sucky. but managed to get hold of myself from 2nd qn onwards. nt tt bad. but still feel screwed up. yes. sigh. argh.
MA1 - i think its manageable. but most ppl thinks its unexpected. so i think i screw up too as this is always the case when i think its okay, its not.
FMGT - WHAT THE HELL IS COMMERCIAL PAPER ISSUE. I'VE NEVER EVER HEARD OF IT BEFORE AND IT CAME OUT. i swear i nv even read abt it before. okay. maybe i just hack care it. but ahhahaa. it came out. and i spent 20 mins, folding my arms, staring at it, thinking abt it. 4marks =.= but of coz. complete the paper first lar. but still very stupid.
so overall. SCREWED UP. ty.
and HAHA. yes. watched slumdog millionaire today! for a moment, i tot i'm taking literature again. its so.. lit. yea. meaningful. and how the ppl struggled in slums. india~ and the young jamal is so cute. ahha. the eyes is sooooooo nice (:(:
whee~
Sunday, February 22, 2009
NG SOON HENGGGGGG!
hello nsh!
finally your bdae uhs. haha. nah nah nah. GIVE YOU ONE POST ALSO LAR :D
lol. like the cow? ahaha. you and yx gave it to me 2 yrs ago randomly lar. RETURN YOU LAR. haha. dun need give it to me as a bdae present again this yr (: give it to yx. lol. its NIU nian! so i gave you a NIU to NAO a good year (:
thanks for all your random lame words, jokes, actions, stuffs. HAHA. i had many great laughs in the year. with your threesome, life is never boring. always got things to laugh one. so stupid. HAHA. okay. not stupid. just very entertaining (: so keep up the gooood job okay. ahahaha. this year exams. so no celebration for you BAH. ahha. 19 years old le! must become more... matured or. dun everyday like happy-go-lucky le ors.
but well. i think u suddenly become down-to-earth i also wun be used to it. hhaha. so. aiya! on second thots, u stay where you are bah. nehnehneh!
HAPPY 19th birthday SOOONHENNNNNNGGGGGGGG. see you tml again or sth. HARHAR.
BUAIZ.
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