gullible v shocks v truth

shucks. its those points of time again..

1) am i gullible?

sometimes when truth are shockingly true, it seems so unbelievable and it seems that only the stupid ones will believe it.

SHIT. i'm still caught in the middle.
i am gg to believe it.
but if it turns out otherwise, i swear i will nv believe anything again.

LOL.

decided.

haha. alright. i blinked my eyes once. OMG. CT IS HERE AGAIN. wth. and i've realise what i've learn so far. it seems that nothing much is done. =.=

yea. waiting for OIAP interview now. my interviewers are my year 1 & 2 advisors. LOL. something tells me passing the interview is smooth. however, i shant be too complacent.

“我最喜欢的颜色是黑与白。但是，黑与白之间都带有灰色地带。只有在钢琴上的黑键与白键之间会带出彩虹。”heard this randomly. 100% agreed.

a penny for ur thoughts, a pound for mine.

contemplating:
about the changes,
about how much we've grown,
about what am i going towards
about what i am now.

looking ahead:
nothing much,
just like what others have become.
everyone heading towards the same direction,
how tiring it is.

i wanna ask, like a kid putting up her hand in a kindergarten class:
why are some things deemed as important to people,
and why are others not as important?
why do some put merits before other things and some put others before self?
are our future all about what we have to achieve or does it depends on what we can achieve?

i realise, as i grew older, i get more timid.
people no longer seem like what they seem to be.
one can never understand the thoughts of another anymore.
scary, indeed.
tired of guessing.
tired of being in the game.

in other words, i was in the game even before i realised i was.
how scary.

distanced.

was feeling so bad that i skipped school. haha. not rly skipping. just skipped 2 lectures & dipplus today. cabbed home coz it rly feels sucky. pop pills & sleep.

yea. its going to be wkn again! i wonder how it's gonna be :D tml short sch day. but i guess will wait in sch for dawnie.

and wl's msn is acting weird! evidence next post.

johnson's fav character - Shakespeare

A man and his wife recently stroke lottery and got rich instantaneously recently. real rich, i mean. and so, they very much wanted to mix into the upper social circle.

One day, they went to a ball and wanted to mix into a grp of richies talking about shakespeare.

And so, the wife butted in: OH YEA! I JUST SAW SHAKESPEARE TAKING BUS 157 TO ORCHARD THAT DAY!

The man, being embarassed of his wife, hurried excused themselves from the conversation and pull his wife out of the ballroom. He then scolded his wife harshly: WHY ARE YOU SO IGNORANT?!...

didnt you noe bus 157 didnt even go to orchard?!

=.=

tt's how ignorant people can be at times.
and yes. im starting to hate the little things at home now.

the reason.

quoting myself: "I realised. As i move closer to my aspirations, I'm actually moving further away from my ambition.

if you guys knew what my ambition & aspirations were, u'd agree with me. lol.

ambition: air stewardess :D
aspiration: get into uni.

SO YEA. what for i go uni and get a irrelevant degree to what i wanna work rite. and since im gg to get tt degree, what for work an irrelevant job rite.

so yea. dilemmas. nth to do with gpa, quan. haha.

dawn, maybe you're right. but facing reality, i cant have the best of both worlds. still, a decision must be made ultimately rite :( haha.

johnson: yea. but shakespeare's way dead.

alan: ambition, answered. lol. HMMM. but, they will still 'unwillingly' be an accountant ultimately rite? somehow i dun really want to do a/cg for life i guess. doing for schwork, the simplified modal, its alrite. aah. but too tedious to do real stuffs. but well, maybe my impression will change after internship! haha. and how did u get here?! haha.

ambitions vs aspirations

ah! life has been hectic recently. so much that i dun even have time to spare for my hk dramas in pps :(

a final year student. time to think about where i should go after i leave this place of 3 years. yes, i know i wanted to get into uni if i could. of coz, NTU would be ideal. but, what about the ambition that i've always talked abt?

i would say, my asipirations & ambitions are different. all the while, i've thought that my plans were good, and i'd be able to realise both of them. now, i'd say it may not be that true after all.

what one person told me was right. why bother to study sth i wouldnt apply in future? i replied, so that when i got grounded, i can put what i learn into good use and wouldnt go jobless. and the person told me, by then, there would be fresh grads and why would employers prefer me?

so it get me thinking a little. moreover, i would lose touch to accounting after that many years later.

ambition or aspirations?

I realised. As i move closer to my aspirations, I'm actually moving further away from my ambition.