mixed feelings.

it's a rojak day.

felt extreme fatigue, a little nostalgic, yet a little soothing, a little of everything.

went back to np ytd @ about 11pm? haha. was waiting at the loft for the rest to come. so slow! then went up to Mia's room before joining the crowd at lvl 9. it's the last night for the sekayu students. so we tonned with them! haha. played cards, surf the net and Rino gave me many nice games!

4am. felt so hungry. adjourned to al ameen for supper/breakfast? haha.

6am - 7.45am. time to send them off! nostalgic part doesnt come from here thou. took many photos with everyone. gonna miss some of them! perhaps we can go visit them next year! haha.



felt a little change in emotions on the train home. probably the fatigue is overwhelming. just realised how time flies. it's the end of november again, just like every year. december is coming again. somehow, i sense that this december is going to be nowhere near the previous.

there's a reason why people don't stay where they are. some things remained, significant things changed. we have come thus far, only to realise we have just revolved around square one. not exactly back to square one, just, around there.

i dunnoe why. every little thing i experience can be pieced back to the delightness missing-since-long-ago.
for once, i wish december won't be here.
can i capped the december experiences at my 17th year on this planet?

nostalgic

I DROPPED MY PHONE ON THE FLOOR AND IT GOT A SCAR :(
i'm very sad althou its nt the first time i dropped my phone on the floor.
coz this time it got a BAD SCAR :(

and it's IS tml.

and i'm gg to the dentist tml.

and dawn's fault.
- it's been a long time since i went bloghopping. & i saw her post on her sister.
I NEVER HAD THE FEELING OF BEING AN ELDER SISTER. do i bite my siblings when im young? i only remembered the times when they refuse to play with me coz i'm having chicken pox. they even put a chair at the door for me to look at time. my siblings are evil.

sigh! pictures overdue-d.
- took a million pics with diff ppl except my parents :( sigh! what a pity.

busy busy busy!

argh! ytd was so stress that i wanna cry. ECONS IS STUPID.

and i almost wanted to drop econs! HAHA.
thanks to alfone for helping me in econs ytd even after his a's! haha. i need tuition from him man!
but today, i see hope in my econs for the CT alrdy. coz i finally understood one topic!
but well. if i fail my econs for ct, i'll def drop i guess.

ARGH. busy busy busy.
taken up peer tutoring again. macroecons. ironic. coz my economics myself is struggling. hahah. will i teach e wrong stuufs?! LOL.

projects. finally one down. nehneh. (:
next week. busy schedule ahead. sigh.
mon - spin meeting.
tues - peertutoring.
wed - sanoku students visit.
thurs - dipplus.
fri - joyce's competition.

week after next. elearning + CT. GG-fied.

a short day of sch tml! im lovin it (:

"i've been to paradise. but i've never been to me."

hahahhaa.

ytd went k-ing with yx and lele then idled the whole day at the prince's palace.

quan & doggie. you both have commited a sin of an economist - fallacy of association is causation!

lol. its NUT true that whenever me or dawn watches manu matches manu will lose. HAHA. at least this time... rafael scored a nice goal at the 90th minute! haha. i'm NOT a jinx! ahhahaa.

wasnt v productive ytd. except... i begin on my 500-word essay on "why i want to join oiap and what i hope to gain from it." i totally have nth to say and its really... repetitive of 2 points. 1. independence. 2. unique experience. ahhahaa.

and... i'm so hooked up on geo challenge now. ahaha. somehow the map is in my mind alrdy. can click w/o thinking much. and lele even more pro lar. his knowledge of flags... imba.
yx also imba. lol. his guitaring.... anyhow play also can be inspired suddenly then a new song is formed. best song: PLEASE GO AWAY. ahha. okay. and his mum is so nice. i dun mean myself. ahahaa. his mum whipped up a nice dinner for the 3 of us plus his sister. its too much for 4 and... there's alot of remains. so... the kingfisher gobbled them up (: he especially love the fish. hahahaha.

argh. IS tml. hate it. nehhhhhhhhhhneh.

braindead.

has anyone ever felt that?

1. you are very aware that you have a brain up in ur head.
2. yet. your brain seemed non-functioning.
3. you cant process what ppl is telling you.
4. yet somehow, u are able to come up with a reply a few mins later...?
5. you just feel like staring into blank space and stop caring abt what is going on in the world.
6. yet, your mind is still thinking abt certain things that wun produce an answer. full of what-ifs.

i dunnoe what happened. i believe i have sufficient sleep... and i dunnoe why my brain seems so dead recently. particularly this week. so much tt... i can sit anywhere and stare. even when bel is beside me on the way home.. i stare into blank space and talk to her like... one sentence in 5 mins. HAHA. okay. nt tt exaggerating. but its so different.

am i using up my limited brain cells?

darn. and my stupid brain habits are back.
1. i dunnoe how come i can bring my phone wallet and keys out. and put them on the table during lunch. and when i left, i only pick up my wallet and phone. and i didnt realise the absence till i needed them. and my dad kept them. LOL.

2. i was walking down the overhead bridge. and dunnoe what makes me miss a step when i'm evidently counting my steps down and i almost rolled down and died. and instantaneously, i'm AWAKE.

a r g h.

piglet & stitches & dog with stitches & everyone

celebrated the 2 things' bdae @ a mongolian bbq restaurant in parkmall recommended by fudgey. hmm. the kangkong rawks. aha. spamming kangkong. and the chef is so skillful. and got mantou!! :D

camwhored ALOT. still alot nt posted. haha.

a picture with the 2 birthday girls! zuo yong you bao.take 1. eat the berry.

take 2. dawn eat strawberry.

group photo w/o antenna. whee.

the chart is cheater. i believe i'm not 169cm tall.

soonheng EXTRA lar.

my stitched eye doggie.

ONG brothers? ahah.

my darlings.

piglet.

stitch.imitating antenna?quan hates me for this. ahhaa.

CO CAMP!

the very old sch building. so eerrie.alumni planning the nightwalk (: jiayong the director. giving all sorts of directions. ahah. i'm the ghost.

jiayong giving the night walk briefing.senior of the seniors can sit aside. the junior alumni do the work! haha.
sneaking out to cass' hse to bathe. and i left my blue towel in bbss :( my fav towel.
combined practice. after graduation, still the same feel.
again, we sit aside. ahha. MY CELLO! nt my cello. my assigned-cello is nicer. and i'm the first-hander of tt cello okay! but... nt mine anymore :( so use some laoya cello.and i still noe how to play! hannah's erhu. ahah.
UGLY UGLY UGLY! CHERCHUAN IS UGLY. btw, cherchuan came. and this uglydoll game belongs to mr siah. he claims to own more games than settler's cafe and invited us to go play if we are free. LOL. but his games all quite cool. every camp bring diff game. haha. this small box costs about 30-40 SGD okay. imported from europe.

i'm ugly as well.

alumni grp photo.

camp camp camps.