And so it goes...

2 fallacies are composed in this week.

1st theory by stupidjy - Everytime I wear formal, it bounds to rain. proven true for a row of 3 weeks. tmd. =.= now stupidjy blames me for it.

2nd theory i observed - I cant say See u tml or i'd see u tml. LOL. ok. insider joke.


A few trends observed, beware of KARMA! HAHA.

1st, i was laughing at stupidjy for what i forgot and i almost tripped over a step. she blammed me for karma. then, i hit myself in the lecture hall & got a DAMM BIG BALAKU & she laughs and says its my karma.

AHHAHA. now its HER KARMA.

SOMEONE JUST FELL OFF THE TREADMILL & SPRAINED HER ANKLE which looks like pigtrotters bandaged up now. LOL.

KARMA KARMA. hhaah. (:

where rainbow ends.

it's very windy today. brr!

started to re-read the book, and im half way done. it's really nice, just like when i first read it in sec 3. and i'm finding the story plot nice!

lol. how 2 best friends beat ard the bush to finally find themselves true for each other, and the many opportunities missed in between. how tragic, and how blissful. now, it's just fiction isnt it?

in less than 2 months, i'd be in an alien environment trying to adapt to a whole-new lifestyle. with perserverance, i can. friends, we wouldnt distanced away, would we? (: eddy was telling me tt as long as i stay online everyday, it'd be like i've never been away. lol. yea. i shld bug everyone everyday when im there. firstly, it'd help me on my loneliness. secondly, we will still be in touch!

AND. IM GG TO STEFANIE SUN'S CONCERT LATER with my brother<3!!! in less than 5 hrs time i'd be there waiting for her to start :D yays!

"To know that you do not know is best. To pretend to know when you do not know is a disease"

This is when ignorance kills.
Stop the pretense. (:

great weekend!

hehs! finally met up with shuling on fri & caught ice age! super hilarious (: & shall meet up with her before i leave! haha.

so yea. NDP PREVIEW WITH NCH & DAWN! :D:D it was great! the goodie bag was GREAT. coz i got the purple one which i had been eyeing on while queuing up. tsk. got elbowed a few times on the way into the stadium. but well, tt's the singapore spirit rite. LOL.

then. best of all. KBOX SESSION WITH YX & LELE THEY ALLLL. it's been a long time since kbox-ing with yx. but he seemed so abnormal today. must be lele's fault. HAHA. cant stop laughing when they bicker. bringing kids out is SOOOOOO troublesome. lol. ahhaa.

sigh. it's monday tml AGAIN. just another week to scrap thru :

28th. damm tiring!

first & foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGHUI, and 21st birthday to my cousiN!

so tired, esp with 2 chalets in a row.

so many drunkards appeared ytd night. OMG. seriously. but its damm hilarious listening to their drunk conversations. ahaha. didn't catch a wink the WHOLE night coz there doesnt seem to have a place to contain me =.= ok. so spent the night outside talking with le & alf's pj friends. and soon, dawn is here (nt that drunk dawn). managed to nap at abt 9am when ppl start to leave and i see pillows and mattresses. lol. but was awaken at 10am to check out =.=

sigh. was really feeling so bored tt i feel asleep at my cousin's 21st bdae party. HAHA. ok. but whatever.

sch's starting tml. depression sets in. :( i cant wait for this sem to be over.

just another week.

finally finished reading "one litre of tears" book edition. no, i dun need a dictionary to read it. HAHA. i can read chinese books (proven: OIAP will not pose such a big problem to me).

okay. took abt 4 days thou.

went for supper @ airport few nights back! haha. finalllllllllly get to take yx's car. and it was such a long ride there. hahaa. coz i directed him on the wrong path. but he missed the exit himself too. so, both at fault bah. lol. so we took 45 mins to get to yishun? haha. like taking mrt. =.= yea. way back was so much faster. only took abt 1 hr from airport to yishun to woodlands to jurong and back to his own hse. what a great difference. anyway, all the expressways are sooo confusing.

sigh. sch's reopening.

no longer perfect.

it's getting scary.
or perhaps i just didnt give them enough rest.

how does it feels like when u wake up one day to realise things are blur?
how does it feels like to rely on spectacles on contact lenses?
it's so scary. isnt it. when u cant see with ur bare eyes.
i'm gg to start eating carrots soon, while things are still mild.

where are people when u need them! i need to rant.

the weekend.

the hols has just began, and is marching towards its end. tmd.

kboxeddddd with B&C on tues after audit-makeup was so fun. 3 person, taking turns to scream, and u just dont have the time to rest (: hahaha. went all the way to causeway pt with ozy to meet the rest after k-ing only to end up nt watching the movie coz its too late. lol.

ah. then thurs is interesting. haha. DAWN. haha. first time there, thrilling, but wouldnt want to go there again, unless some1 drives (: (HAHA. hint to yx, wq, weeteck, doggie)

fri coca-ed. lol. realised tt place like those steamboat places in HK. amazed by the way fish glue is cooked. hahaha. and amazed with the yx's 深度和墨水。read a few chapters of his books on the journey home and found tt its really interesting, and is really different from english novels, just like what he said. (: 大开眼界。

sat, VIVO-ed with daaaaaaaaaaawn and keng gai too! she shopped, i window-shopped, only to give in to the temptations at the last min, and shopped with her too. whatever happens to my will to save up? hahha. dawnn. ur fault.

aaaaaargh. seems like v little ppl's gg to chalet next wkn. should we go, dawn? or should we not?

haha. DAWN.

HAHAHHAHA. dawn. im still laughing at the incident. HAAHHAHAH

LOL.

last CT!

ohyea. last ct, finalllllllllllllllly! (: no more common tests alrdy!

yea. joyce's heading to california tml for 3 weeks! nt gg to see her for a month i guess! so, we have a surprise farewell session for her today! i think she's super touched! HAHA. (:

okay. then went to meeeeeet dawnnnnnnnn finally! :D:D
then. went ozy's hseee.

ah ah. okay yea.

and lol. i went facebook & was so disappointed. how can everyone is mentioned & im not. Jacqueline. im J. J J J J J J J J J J. everyone there. dawn, mag, alfone, alfred, etc. even rebekah & christine. JUSTIN. im so disappointed.

谢谢。

奶奶：

记得小时候给您承诺，您也相对的许下承诺。您临走前，我再次许下同样的承诺。至今，我只记得自己对您的那个承诺，也不在乎您是否可以完成您的承诺。

每当我面对困境，就为了实现诺言，我一定不放弃。就是为了那个承诺，我努力，用功，不让你失望，才我有今天的成就。虽然不大，但已出乎自己的预料。

昨天，我才发现您领走前交待姑姑帮您完成您的承诺，我差一点就要哭出来了。再给我一年的时间，我必定会实现我的诺言。

谢谢您一直给我支持，给我力量，让我发奋图强。

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ah. today's audit. mixed feelings. i finished the paper fast. yet, i got a bad feeling.
2 more to go. tax. claw.

one week.

one week has passed so quickly! in a blink, 1st paper down (: moving towards my FINAL 3 COMMON TEST PAPERS. end of poly life. 3 yrs. like tt (: cool!


had a very pleasant surprise ytd! whee~ <3


audit.tax.claw. RARH.


how will this week go? ah ah. cant wait till fri.


and my bad influence friends tempted me to kbox when i shld be revising. HAHA. but i like kbox with them <3

gullible v shocks v truth

shucks. its those points of time again..

1) am i gullible?

sometimes when truth are shockingly true, it seems so unbelievable and it seems that only the stupid ones will believe it.

SHIT. i'm still caught in the middle.
i am gg to believe it.
but if it turns out otherwise, i swear i will nv believe anything again.

LOL.

decided.

haha. alright. i blinked my eyes once. OMG. CT IS HERE AGAIN. wth. and i've realise what i've learn so far. it seems that nothing much is done. =.=

yea. waiting for OIAP interview now. my interviewers are my year 1 & 2 advisors. LOL. something tells me passing the interview is smooth. however, i shant be too complacent.

“我最喜欢的颜色是黑与白。但是，黑与白之间都带有灰色地带。只有在钢琴上的黑键与白键之间会带出彩虹。”heard this randomly. 100% agreed.

a penny for ur thoughts, a pound for mine.

contemplating:
about the changes,
about how much we've grown,
about what am i going towards
about what i am now.

looking ahead:
nothing much,
just like what others have become.
everyone heading towards the same direction,
how tiring it is.

i wanna ask, like a kid putting up her hand in a kindergarten class:
why are some things deemed as important to people,
and why are others not as important?
why do some put merits before other things and some put others before self?
are our future all about what we have to achieve or does it depends on what we can achieve?

i realise, as i grew older, i get more timid.
people no longer seem like what they seem to be.
one can never understand the thoughts of another anymore.
scary, indeed.
tired of guessing.
tired of being in the game.

in other words, i was in the game even before i realised i was.
how scary.

distanced.

was feeling so bad that i skipped school. haha. not rly skipping. just skipped 2 lectures & dipplus today. cabbed home coz it rly feels sucky. pop pills & sleep.

yea. its going to be wkn again! i wonder how it's gonna be :D tml short sch day. but i guess will wait in sch for dawnie.

and wl's msn is acting weird! evidence next post.

johnson's fav character - Shakespeare

A man and his wife recently stroke lottery and got rich instantaneously recently. real rich, i mean. and so, they very much wanted to mix into the upper social circle.

One day, they went to a ball and wanted to mix into a grp of richies talking about shakespeare.

And so, the wife butted in: OH YEA! I JUST SAW SHAKESPEARE TAKING BUS 157 TO ORCHARD THAT DAY!

The man, being embarassed of his wife, hurried excused themselves from the conversation and pull his wife out of the ballroom. He then scolded his wife harshly: WHY ARE YOU SO IGNORANT?!...

didnt you noe bus 157 didnt even go to orchard?!

=.=

tt's how ignorant people can be at times.
and yes. im starting to hate the little things at home now.

the reason.

quoting myself: "I realised. As i move closer to my aspirations, I'm actually moving further away from my ambition.

if you guys knew what my ambition & aspirations were, u'd agree with me. lol.

ambition: air stewardess :D
aspiration: get into uni.

SO YEA. what for i go uni and get a irrelevant degree to what i wanna work rite. and since im gg to get tt degree, what for work an irrelevant job rite.

so yea. dilemmas. nth to do with gpa, quan. haha.

dawn, maybe you're right. but facing reality, i cant have the best of both worlds. still, a decision must be made ultimately rite :( haha.

johnson: yea. but shakespeare's way dead.

alan: ambition, answered. lol. HMMM. but, they will still 'unwillingly' be an accountant ultimately rite? somehow i dun really want to do a/cg for life i guess. doing for schwork, the simplified modal, its alrite. aah. but too tedious to do real stuffs. but well, maybe my impression will change after internship! haha. and how did u get here?! haha.

ambitions vs aspirations

ah! life has been hectic recently. so much that i dun even have time to spare for my hk dramas in pps :(

a final year student. time to think about where i should go after i leave this place of 3 years. yes, i know i wanted to get into uni if i could. of coz, NTU would be ideal. but, what about the ambition that i've always talked abt?

i would say, my asipirations & ambitions are different. all the while, i've thought that my plans were good, and i'd be able to realise both of them. now, i'd say it may not be that true after all.

what one person told me was right. why bother to study sth i wouldnt apply in future? i replied, so that when i got grounded, i can put what i learn into good use and wouldnt go jobless. and the person told me, by then, there would be fresh grads and why would employers prefer me?

so it get me thinking a little. moreover, i would lose touch to accounting after that many years later.

ambition or aspirations?

I realised. As i move closer to my aspirations, I'm actually moving further away from my ambition.