last few moments of the life of as a seventeen.

an irony timing to do such thing as well as to feel this way. yet, it suddenly hit upon me that my life as at the end of seventeen years on this earth is much of an success.

i have accomplished nothing in the important aspects of my life and i've no sense of accomplishment. stupidity and ignorance, perhaps, was the only thing i'm proud to say i've been tangled with.

so what's with life. growing up, excelling, being an all-rounder, having wide social circle, and not forgetting a great family. the family i'm born into has nth to do with accomplishment. it's just fate. and i'm relieved that at least i have such good fortune to be born in a great family.

but i guess, the best ever thing tt ever happened to me after the good fate was to have great friends in secondary school whom i've nt really drifted away despite the fact that we have all chosen different route to take on after sec school. they have always known what's on my mind despite the distance. they always knew what to do with my moods. and they knew what would bring me from hell to heaven. thank you. and see u guys on the 15th (:

i was thinking. is there any decisions that i've made that impacted me greatly and benefited me lots. sebest told me it was choosing to go NP and met them. lol. i laughed. and i hesitated. afterall, i regretted taking on poly route at times. it's quite stupid actually. already at the end of my year 2 and im still doubting on my decision made 2 years ago.

can someone just enlighten me on what am i doing?
being a young adult now, i have suddenly lost my balance and weakened my footsteps. 'lost' shouldnt be the word. in e first place, i've never been clear-minded.

after a full 17 years, i realise im still at square 1. nth done. nth special, and plain insignificant.
dang.