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oh my. back to a routine life. i wanna break the cycle.

and im hating to write. lol.

eh? last semester studying! whee. 4 more months to go i guess.

and im getting really motivated to go OIAP again. bye singapore.

time like this, shld be better spent sleeping.

i dont like tonight. coz i've a bad feeling. i feel bad. i dont feel good.

hence, i shld just go and sleep and forget about everything in this world and wake up to welcome the world tml with my arms wide open.

everything can just go and die at the moment now. i feel depress thinking abt it.

this day.

and so, my sister was finally admitted into the hospital.

she hasnt been feeling well for the past 2 weeks, being tortured by fever & pain at nights for almost everyday. well, she stays in hostel so i dun really get to see her. but weekends, when i see her, i felt her pain too. it's the first time that i've seen her cry from the pain that she is suffering. i wanted to cry with her too.

i've always tot that... me and my sister dont really get along well with all our quarrels & fights. but this incident has made me realised how i love & care for her and that i really want her to be well. it somehow reminded me of the pain i felt when i saw my granny suffering the other time. its been 4 years since i felt so. the heartpain and the worry-ness i dare not show to others.

silently, i cried and pray that she would be fine.

NDP 2009!

HEYLO!

ndp is here once again. how time flies. haha. it just seemed like lastyear one's barely ended! anyone interested to join being NDP ambassador?! :D

it's quite fun, get to watch NDP foc (no need queue for tickets, can get tickets too), eat KFC, pizzahut for meals, get many goodiebags, free uniform & lots of friends.. & many cca points too. ahaha.

here's a poster of it & my grp photo in the poster! haha. okay. sylvester said it doesnt look like me. but well. yea. join NDP. CCApoints_CCApoints.

ohyea. today last day of work with becks @ Maybank. so-so. okays. and when im home, for once, i got into the same lift as my airsteward-neighbour. SO COOL LAR. he's SIA AIR STEWARD LAEEE. and his uniform is so damm smart & cool & awesome. perhaps when i go for interview i shall ask him for tips. but. aiya. i barely know him. BUT.!! a guy being an airsteward. so COOOL. and he really look GREAT in the uniform! SIA :D

inspired?

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/popup-frame.html

go watch the vid there!

no, im not promoting christianity nor am i into christianity.

just felt that things brought up are quite inspiring (quoting from lopez). haha. how true & how ironic mankind is. yet myself, belongs to that category too.

often i've pondered. what am i soughting after all this while and how am i making the best out of it? well, guess i will only have the answer when i am really doing it right (:

finally gotten a new mp3 (: touch, touched, TOUCHHH. ahha. okay lar. as i told lele, somehow.. i still miss my creative zen. ipod may be like much better than creative, but a noob like me prefers a more user-friendly creative zen. but of coz, im nt gg to regret. haha.

Love to be loved by you.

Baby, tell me how can I tell you

That I love you more than life

Show me how can I show you

That I’m blinded by your light

When you touch me I can touch you

To find out the dream is true

I love to be loved by you

-Marc Terenzi

life's been normal recently. & i just realised i've been to school for at least a day every week ever since sch hols. somehow i wished im back to my year1 lives, been free from sch during holidays.

wanted to work. but to no avail.

lost my mp3. kinda sad. bought it w my 1st pay :( sigh. going to buy ipod touch. before sch reopens.

very tired recently. probably nth to motivates me on. i need sth, some motivation. or i will get even more tired. some what's my holidays about now? drama & more drama? im getting dramatic. haha.

many wants, many unfulfilled, much unsatisfaction.
to try, to fulfil, to continue to satisfy
but only to realise
it's not up to me to realise the dreams.

When you touch me I can touch you

To find out the dream is true

I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved

I love to be loved by you

Yes I love to be loved by you

1st anniversary!!!!!!!! :D

whee!

i know nobody celebrates this.

but let me be special :D

it's my 1st anniversary with my braces! HAPPY BRACES DAY JACQUELINE!

how time flies. doctor koh says 1/2 more year to go. 1/2 more year, im going to say byebye to braces and take them off. HAHAHAHA.

no time to do a collage. when im free, i shall do the development of my braces days :D

buaiz. tired.

happy enlisting, alfone.
happy belated birthday alvinchew & elvinaTAY!
happy braces day, jacqueline! :D

Serve Batam'09

Finally back! had a great rest. hoped everyone got a great rest too!

It's really a great experience and somehow, i want to go on a serve trip again! not just 4 days. 2 weeks! i want a longer one.

The kids are really cute and... it made me learn to cherish the things i own more. they, who lived in slums could lead such a happy life. yet us, who has the luxury of all that we want (much more than what we need) are still complaining so much! i envy their simple life, their innocent smiles and their easy-attained happiness. never had i known happiness can come from such simple smiles.

they may be poor, but they definitely had the best childhood. definitely better than us. so let's learn to cherish all that we have. stop complaining, stop harping on little things, move forward with a smile and welcome the future with our arms wide open (:

it may seem that we are going there to help them, but i would say that i gained alot in return. not just cca points, but valuable experiences, sense of satisfaction, happiness, 4 days totally FREE from worries, and.. i learnt from them. to give and take, to not take everything to heart seriously, to be generous, to be... simple.

thank you kids! (:
and thank ou B-team! i want to go serve trip with u guys again (:

PS, there's chickens in kampung. ZZZZZZZ> thanks to dennis, jy, bel for being my sandwich bread and... "escorting" me up & down the hill. lol. i wouldnt noe what to do w/o u guys. i will faint on the spot. haha.

lots of pixes! (: more on fb!

eh! lele this is for you. got LELE goreng lae. cost about 4 SGD only. haha. is it ostrich goreng or chicken goreng? ahha.

new love <3

bbf (:

wait till im back! :D

CAMP IS OVER! :D

ohmy. it's definitley tiring to run a camp :( many hiccups. but its better than expectations! i want to thank my committee for the support as well as Ms Cindy Choong, Mrs Linda Seah and Mrs Anna Yap. alsoooo... ALL THE CAMPERSSSSSSSSSS :D

yea. i lost my voice. funny thing is... i didnt really shout =.= sigh. sucks. it really sucks esp when i was awaken by a call today and i wanna say HELLO but NTH came out and i tried alot of times and i still cant speak. then... i panicked. then i tried shouting still nth. it was a hilarious scene=.= ahah.

and yeapps. so.. after so much planning and worrying, its finally over! *relieved*

so i finally went to the doctor. my mum has been pestering me to visit the doctor since last december. my friends would noe why. HAHA. i have been coughing like mad from ending of november is about... CNY? and even after that. and just when i tot im free from all germs, the stupid cough germs mutated into... sth that attacks my throat so much tt i cant speak? :( and yea. so i hope i will get well before batam.

just reach home today since saturday. great (: missed my bed so much. leaving for batam next monday. bye bed again. i hope the one-star hotel in batam is good :( coz i would not be able to sleep in peace if its.. old and.. funny.

so yea. i actually think i can book the loft and continue stay there til fri. i have been to school DAILY since last monday. and just as expected, tml, thursday, friday will be spent in school again. sad life. but good life after batam. (not really. 20 march sucks)

but well. i shall shutup and go to sleep now. have been sleeping less than my required 8 hrs per day. ARGH.

BUAIZ!

o v e r

whee! glad. i noe most people are over with e exams eons ago, hack care. yea. im relieved. even though i knew that i screwed up my papers.

DAM. okay. yea. rant abt papers.

ECONS - whatever. not in gpa. im glad if i can even secure a B :D that's all i ask for. thanks.

AUDIT - keeping my fingers crossed.

RFA - WTH. first qn. leases. kanna pawned. really. the lecturers have some stunts. and IM STUNNED. i swear. this is the first time in my life. I SHIVERED while attempting the first qn. and as you all noe, the start determines the rest of the qns. so yea. kinda sucky. but managed to get hold of myself from 2nd qn onwards. nt tt bad. but still feel screwed up. yes. sigh. argh.

MA1 - i think its manageable. but most ppl thinks its unexpected. so i think i screw up too as this is always the case when i think its okay, its not.

FMGT - WHAT THE HELL IS COMMERCIAL PAPER ISSUE. I'VE NEVER EVER HEARD OF IT BEFORE AND IT CAME OUT. i swear i nv even read abt it before. okay. maybe i just hack care it. but ahhahaa. it came out. and i spent 20 mins, folding my arms, staring at it, thinking abt it. 4marks =.= but of coz. complete the paper first lar. but still very stupid.

so overall. SCREWED UP. ty.

and HAHA. yes. watched slumdog millionaire today! for a moment, i tot i'm taking literature again. its so.. lit. yea. meaningful. and how the ppl struggled in slums. india~ and the young jamal is so cute. ahha. the eyes is sooooooo nice (:(:

whee~

NG SOON HENGGGGGG!

hello nsh!

finally your bdae uhs. haha. nah nah nah. GIVE YOU ONE POST ALSO LAR :D

lol. like the cow? ahaha. you and yx gave it to me 2 yrs ago randomly lar. RETURN YOU LAR. haha. dun need give it to me as a bdae present again this yr (: give it to yx. lol. its NIU nian! so i gave you a NIU to NAO a good year (:

thanks for all your random lame words, jokes, actions, stuffs. HAHA. i had many great laughs in the year. with your threesome, life is never boring. always got things to laugh one. so stupid. HAHA. okay. not stupid. just very entertaining (: so keep up the gooood job okay. ahahaha. this year exams. so no celebration for you BAH. ahha. 19 years old le! must become more... matured or. dun everyday like happy-go-lucky le ors.

but well. i think u suddenly become down-to-earth i also wun be used to it. hhaha. so. aiya! on second thots, u stay where you are bah. nehnehneh!

HAPPY 19th birthday SOOONHENNNNNNGGGGGGGG. see you tml again or sth. HARHAR.

BUAIZ.

快乐不快乐

我看你快乐，我跟着你快乐。
我看你不快乐，我也不快乐。
我看你快乐，你看你自己不快乐，那我就想哄你快乐。
我看你不快乐，你看你自己快乐，那我也会替你快乐。

洒脱放手，不代表我已不再会不快乐。只因为你快乐，所以我快乐。

happy 19th birthday, amazing ozy!

Hi there The Amazing Ozy!

It's your AMAZING 19th BIRTHDAY!! (: so how amazingly did u spend it? ahaha. sorrrrrry! having exams. tml 1st paper!!!!! so cant go find you. ahha. it's been 4 years alrdy! since sec 3. i cant rmb how i noe you. i only rmb my friends in 3e3 were lysa, neha, chinhong, erwinlee, hermann. HAHA. cant rmb how u popped up. but you did. were you sitting near us? lol. but yea. you're the lizard(lysa's joke) cum chicken little.

i still thinks u look like chicken little ozy. LOL. and gosh ozyong. I COULDNT FIND A PICTURE JUST 2 of US. lol. its time to take pictures again. ohyea. tt pic above i have to crop out weixiong. ahah. my photoshopping skills are improving (:

SEE YOU REALLLLLLL SOON! all the best for your exams :D dun be such an ozy alrdy. wake up ONG ZHI YUAN!

Happy 19th!

fantasization, fantasy, fanny. random. ahaha.

joyce's ZYC. looks more like zyc if he didnt smile. lol.

this was the day we discovered MSN9.0!!!!!! :D haha. and it was so hilarious. really. very fantasized over the new msn. so we camwhored all day and recorded many many dynamic display pictures. wanna uploaddddddd the funny vids. but dunnoe where is it stored. BUT. ahah. so hilarious tt i spammed ozy, justin and soonheng. coz only they can see them.

camwhoring with JYYYYYY & sh's elephant. ahah.

some random photo i found in my com. lol. ages ago?

many many many pics in joyce cam. including yumcha last last fri. lol. upload when i got them :D

annnnnnnnndd. exams' crazy. ahha. pushing me crazy too (: after this sem, just another sem before i set off to exams and my graduation tour! have alrdy start fantasizing abt graduation tour with the tards. ahah. they will come shanghai find me n jy before we set offf! whee!

many many things ahead (:

well. digestive system still nt tt good. its okay. lose weight. HAHA.

received an absolute good news today (: haahaa. ACRA credit xbrl competition prize $$$ alrdy! woohooo. yea. time to change them into rupiah soon for batam trip.

jinying will lead us to GO SHOPPPPPPPPING at batam :D hehe! her territory lar. too bad cant extend stay. but one day shld be enuff for us to shop till dead (:

batam batam batam.! whee~

sigh

food poisoning yet again. hate the feeling of vomitting uncontrollably. i didnt even eat anything much today. yet the bloaty-ness just wouldnt spare me.

argh. so much worries.

i just dun feel like enjoying my life at the moment. hate this feeling. yucks.

crazyness.

no. i didnt win today's $10 million. damm.

but its okay. i just realise another shock of my life.

WTH. go into NTU NBS Accountancy need an avg GPA of 3.95. CRAZYNESS. this is CRAZYNESS. CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY.

http://talkback.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=60467 this is all about craziness.

and it's driving me crazy. i have struggled 3 sems to maintain my GPA. and. it just hit upon me that im barely avg. and i have to continue to maintain it which would be crazyness coz i somehow lacked the motivation to mug anymore.

i realised. so much effort put in. so hard to maintain gpa. and ALL YOU NEED is just one flop. and you can kiss goodbye to gpa. kiss goodbye to dipmerit. kiss goodbye to university. kiss goodbye leehom.

mugger may be my middle name, but this sem, i really lose my motivation. DIE. exam's in 2 weeks time? with econs, audit, rfa, ma and finally fmgt. sucks. none of them is my forte this sem. even my lovely computations modules are stuck with high % of theory. my worst enemy.

why do i feel the sudden stress?and its crazyness. ARGHHHH.

and i enjoy yumcha today (: (: hehe.

happy 19th birthday joyceeeeeeee! :D

HAPPPPPPPY 19th birthday JOYCE! (:

Once again, u turned 19 when i barely turn 18. well oh well. i shld accept the fact tt i can never cat up with you (: haha.

happy 19th! i'm merely 18th (: and your best bdae present is taking a photo with zyc rite. HAHA.

enjoy your day today! :D being spent in school with US. ahaaha.

CNY!

ah. nt my brother. is my cousin.

tt was cny day 2. haha. forgot to take family photo on day 1. yea. cny as usual. but it seems that luck is better this year (: coz... the royal queen owns mahjong. i zi-mo-ed 6 4-tai games in a row OKAYYY. WAHHAHAH. and the winning streak was broken coz one of the players ran out of chips. so yea. haha. but i think tt's only on day 1. coz day 2 i dun see such good mahjong luck. win thou (:

wahaha. i still wanna go bainian! chinhong's on friday. mrschua's on sat.

anyway. mdm leong said its nt a problem to get into OCBC shanghai. so i guess, my confidence regained. but well. if tt is true, next year cny i will be LONELY :( no angbaos. even if got, also RMB. arghh. jy. i give u angbao, u give me back okay? ahha.

and yea. I'M GG SERVEBATAM'09!! im gg to do community work to redeem myself from all the sins i've done. ahhaa. yays. then can go batam shopping also! :D